Happy 10 weeks to me!

That is the size of the baby right now (its a kumquat). Fun facts:
With bones and cartilage starting to form and vital organs beginning to function, baby is making major progress. Body length will almost double in the next three weeks, and arm joints are now working. (Soon, legs will too.)

P.S. Dad ANSWERED my call and even said love you too at the end of the convo!! Things are looking up?! I'll still take it slow. I'm just so happy!

Where is a medicine man?

So, I mentioned yesterday how I get migraines. I have always gotten them, and most people that suffer from migraines don't get them as much when pregnant. Unfortunately, I am not one of those lucky people. Last week, I had a terrible one, absolutely debilitating. Yesterday, was the same. It started around 3 in the afternoon and lasted until 3 today. There isn't much I can do for them, take tylenol, use an ice pack, have a cup of caffeine and take a nap. Sometimes I wake up and I'm better, other times I'm only better momentarily.

Today, I decided I couldn't take it anymore, I gave in and called a chiropractor that I went to once in my life. When I went, I got my neck cracked (though its my phobia) and I honestly can say I didn't really get a headache for a while. So I decided to call and pay out of pocket and just get an appt as soon as possible. I went today and we'll see if it works! I don't really believe in chiropractors, but I do know it worked one time when I didn't believe in it, and it was def worth a shot.

Oh yeah, and I took my spinal xrays from 2002, and my neck the spine is curved the opposite way of what it should be, which would explain headaches. Doesn't that sound awful? I think it is. Maybe my yoga class can somehow fix this.

Dreams oh dreams

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Pregnancy brings on lots of crazy things, and it's all different for everyone! Some people get acne, 75% of people get morning sickness, others become emotional while others are more stable minded. One thing that's common, crazy dreams!

I finally had my first baby dream a couple nights ago. I had a dream I had the baby like now, but it was completely healthy and normal- and it was a boy. He had light hair though, and looked like a white baby (no offense to anyone), but I was disappointed about that. Is it wrong to look forward to an exotic looking child? I think not. As far as gender, I don't really care what I want. First I wanted a girl, at the same time I sorta want a boy as they love their mamas! No matter what, I don't think I'll know the meaning of love until I see my baby.

P.S. Only 2 1/2 weeks until second trimester, meaning hopefully no more migraines, more energy, more surreal and safe, and closer to seeing the little one!!

P.P.S. I am showing and a little too selfish to be happy about it ;) I hope I end up liking preggo body cuz right now, I don't.

Some background

Newly pregnant....when I found out I wasn't very happy, very stressed. Mostly worried about the stigma attached to pregnancy. What would my friends think? "Oh just another person jumping into things, not married, changing their life forever..."

What would my dad think? "My daughter is a disappointment. It's because she's with a spanish person."

Sadly, I didn't have any doubt about myself being able to care for this baby, no doubt whatsoever about Michael always being a good father, no worries about my life changing forever, instead, I was mostly worried about what people would think.

Time went by, some days were better than others. And then I had to go to the hospital. They told me I had a 50% chance of miscarrying. Hearing this made me so angry at myself, so angry with my father for his lack of support, and I felt so sad.

A week after, I got an ultrasound and things seemed to be progressing normally, now my chances of miscarrying were only 15%.

I started telling a few more people, and to my suprise, so many were completely supportive. I heard things like "if I were in your position I'd do the same," or "I'm so glad is you rather than some other people I know" and even "you're going to be a great mother."

Presently, at 9 weeks and 4 days, I am happy and can't wait, though I am still lacking my fathers support.